I need an Alli..

So with The New York Anime Festival comming up and me friggin GAINING instead of losing weight, I've decided not to go as Fran of Final Fantasy. That and I havn't finished my costume. XD.
Im just going to go as a generic Lolita and save Fran for next year. Plus One of my friends has enlisted me in her Final Fantasy Group so Im not going to be the only FF character there. I can't wait for then. So much fun to be had!!

Anyway, I think that Im going to start useing Alli, the weight loss pill. I wanted to use it in the past but Im super scared of the side effects that happen if you mess up but then again thats good. It punishes you for screwing up. I think I need that.

So tomorrow Im going to go and buy it after school and hope for the best. I've been reading reviews and I've estimated that for the first week I can reasonable expect to loose about 2-5lb which would be good. Naturally I can loose and/or gain 5 to 10lbs in a week so I think it will work out well. Maybe I can get to a size 6-7us by my birthday. 3 months starting from October. Or maybe I'll get to my beloved 4! But truthfully I think that inches are more inportant for me right now.

I need to get my waist from 30 to at least 27 and my chest to a 35 from 41. I really don't don't about my hips but my ideal is 35 or less. I have a true hourglass figure and I'd like to keep it that way. I wonder if I can get my waist to 20in?

That would be great measurments. 30-20-30. All nice and evenly spaced. I'd love to be equivalent to the golden ratio. Now thats perfection.

The Golden Ratio. beautiful, perfect..........

So anyway, a few months ago I went to the hair dresser with damanged sholder length hair and came out severly depressed with hair that didn't even touch my neck. It's grown some since but Im still so depressed about it. For Years I've been trying to get my hair to grow and now I've been set back so much. I bought a whole bunch of books on haircare and so far I've been following them and getting improvements. For one My hair is much MUCH softer than it usually is. It doesn't tangle anymore when I wash it. In fact it doesn't tangle period. It also behaves very well in terms of styling. My hair is permed so I can easily tell when its growning. I think I got about an inch or two of growth this month but Im struggling to keep it. I don't want to perm my hair too often but I also don't want it to fall off. I really wish my mom never permed my hair when I was small. If it was natural I wouldn't have to worry about it as much. But lately I've been wearing wigs to protect my hair from the elements and also to conseal any hair treatments I like to leave in my hair all day. I have a super big and curly one I wear when I have leave in treatments so that It doesn't look odd or anything. I just secure with pins and tadaa! I think I might invest in a lace wig but I fear for my hair line... That glue pulling on your hair line just can't be good in the long run. But for special occasions, like when I know my boyfriend is going to put his hands in my hair, a good lace wig would be nice.

Oh, did I mention I have a hair fetish? I love hair. Espically all natural hair free of product and chemicals. Ben my crush often let me run my hands through his hair and stratch his scalp and basically just mess it up but only because his hair always just falls back into place. Ben is Korean and his hair is beautiful. I often threaten to cut off his hair and make a wig of it. Haha. I miss that with him. It's not the same when I play with David, my boyfriends hair. David's Peruvian and his hair is just all soft and shiny but If I mess with it too much it becomes a mess and tangles. I want to tell him to take care of his hair but he's only now figuring out how to care for it himself so I just back off.

Did I mention that my hair is super soft and lovely now that I've been careing for it?

It's hard but Im going to try. I want waist length hair or longer and Im going to get it!

School for me is super hard right now because I have 10 hr classes everyday. I got the opertunity to starts school at a later time but I want to graduate early and get the hell outa my house! So Im going to suffer now in hopes and come June I'll have my nice shiny Advanced Regents Diploma. I've taken 2 languages, Chemstry and Music and Art and everything they friggin want! I've had to haggle with my guidence counsler but Im sure everythihng will be okay in the end.

I promise myself that if Alli works and I lose all the weight I want I will go buy myself this uber sexy Burberry coat I've had my eyes on for a while. It cost like $1000 but Im going to save money for every pound I drop till that day comes. In fact I'm going to buy an entire designer outfit for myself. Marc Jacobs, BCBG, Guess, LV. A Burberry coat, a MJ top and botom, BCBG shoes, Guess accessories and a LV bag...Hehe! All in small sizes!

Also Since PS3 is now $299 and Final Fantasy 14 Online is comming out next year. If I reach my first goal by then then I'll go buy it and pay for a Years subscription. ^___^ It's not pro active but hey, I want it. Im going to get Wii Strip when it comes out too so maybe I'll set that as my next goal after this...Then again in stead of elctronics maybe I should focus of clothes???

Oh well....

Ummm, I joined PoupeeGirl!!! It's basicallly a community space that where people take pic of their clothes to bulid a virtual closet. Alot of the people are very slim So I want to slim down and get some new clothes before I start posting clothes, So far I've been uploading Makeup and the such....here my link!

http://pupe.ameba.jp/profile/hOZca8Wk2OkI/

Mikami.

So I think this is long enough now so laters...