Dominatrix

So My 3GS came to day but unfortunatly I got stuck with a 3.1 one so now I can't jailbreak it. On top of that I accendentaly used my dads upgrade to get the phone so now its his number on the phone but I'll think about it tomorrow.

I also got the nike + sensor. I figure since I had the shoe already I might as well get it.

I bought a size 8 dress from NY and Co and it fit like a dream on my top area however I couldn't step into it to put it on...I also noticed that my size 10 Levi's were very VERY tight.

Now I bought thouse pants very very baggy and loose so for them to be tight now is very very telling.

Im geting small on top but big on the bottom...

What to do.......

But hey It's something. I've been logging my foods and so far for the week I haven't eaten above 900 cal daily. Which is normal so I guess that means that in order to loose some serious weight I have to eat about 500-700 which is basically the ABC diet....

But I don't get it. Why am I fat if I eat less that 900 cal a day?....it's the diabetes I tell you....It loves fat. I should have been a size 0 by now. I need to do something.

Anyway I gave David a present from France and England. A Parisian Teddy Bear and British Pocky and today I got this message from him on Facebook.

Mika, I never really thanked you appropriately since you had to leave early, so I wanted to say this instead. You're a wonderful person aside from the friends we've already gotten to know and I'm sure we'll both always grow for the better. I'm keeping the Bear where I can see it so it'll remind me of you ^ ^ Bye for now.

Tears fell from my eye just to see this. It ment alot to me. David's really a great guy. I just wish that he'd be more agressive with me. Im a girly girl to the max, I don't like being tough nor do I want to be the man in the relationship. I want someone to dominate me, someone who takes charge of stuff. I can hold my own yes but Id rather not.

I want someone to pamper me forever~

But I have to loose this weight first. I have to get it away and become clean again.

It's a good thing Im getting there.